Hi Kalie, happy 2 months. I love you. These last two months have been some of the most meaningful of my life, mostly because of the fact that I met you. I'm sorry I struggle so much, I can tell it affects you and causes you turmoil because we both interpret each others unhappiness as being a result of the others actions. I tend to overthink and ask you questions that in turn make you question my feelings / your ability as my girlfriend and I just wanted to say that I never question my love for you and especially never consider you to be anything short of the best girlfriend ever. I love you and am gonna try my hardest to make us work out despite our current distance. One of my favorite musicians once said, "Everytime I think about love, I think about me thinking about you." I think this encapsulates my idea of love is too, as I, before meeting you, I could have never fathomed the feeling of love and how deep and poignant it is. After meeting you it feels like one of the only emotions I feel is love because of how much I love and cherish you. I know this isn't really a love letter and more of a confessional of my state of mind but if there's anything you pull away from my nonsensical ramblings its that I love you more than anything in the world. I wait on your text every day so that I can atleast exchange sentence with you. I care about you so much I lay wide awake in the middle of the night with tears in my eyes because I wish time would speed up so I can grow a family with you. I know I'm a lot and ask for a lot out of you but its because I want to build a future with you, I promise I would never bring up any issues or qualms I have in our relationship if I didn't care about you and had no intention of spending my life with you. As I was writing this I glanced to my left and saw the polaroids you left on my nightstand and feel tears welling up in my eyes. I try hard to express my love in a palatable way but I was never meant to love only half way, I find myself drowning in my own emotions at times because I work myself up over meaningless and miniscule things. I say all of this to say: I love you and want to be with you forever, so give all your love to me and I will return it tenfold. I love you so much and could not dream of a life without you, the light of my life.
Love,
your future husband